A couple of weeks ago, I finished my bottle of Blackmores Pregnancy and Breastfeeding capsules. As I swallowed the last capsule down, it started to hit me that it was very likely I would never need to take another one again. I had been taking those little (or not so little) capsules on and off, since I first found out I was pregnant with the baby we miscarried at five weeks. That was the start of my journey into pregnancy and babies and now, five years later, our time with babies is coming to an end.
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| Finally finished taking these |
As we have decided that Alicia will be our last baby, there
has started to be a lot of lasts. In a lot of ways it is really exciting, but there
is also sadness at the close of this chapter in my life.
Recently, two women from church had baby girls. As hard as
it has been, I have been passing on all my baby clothes to them. I have kept a
couple of special items but have decided that it is time to pass on all the
lovely clothes. I was recently getting all the 000 sized clothes out of the
drawers and I almost had to close my eyes and throw the clothes in the bag,
because if I stopped and looked at them, the memories of my girls wearing them
made it impossible to give them away.
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| Ali wearing one of my favourites that now has a new home |
I do love that I am able to pass on the lovely clothes we
have been given or bought for our girls. As one of my friends said, I can enjoy seeing my friends girls wearing the clothes which is far better than them sitting in a box. But
it is hard saying goodbye to the clothes, as giving away each clothing size symbolises another stage that we
won’t experience again.
Alicia is growing so fast, she is heading towards seven
months already and before I know it the baby stage will be over. I have loved
having babies, but I am also really looking forward to seeing my girls grow
into the women God has planned for them to be. I am also looking forward to
being able to have conversations with them and to see each of their
personalities emerge.
It is hard to say goodbye to each chapter of our lives
but with every ending there is a wonderful new beginning. I look forward to
enjoying every moment of every new stage.
Did you (or will you)
grieve the end of the baby stage?
